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Stag Party
01:38
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crying out for
the blade you know you deserve
that severs hope’s last tendon
and sends you under the earth
begging for it
because you always need a line to cross, then erase
and all the love that you’ve been given will never be enough
fuck the world
just another sip of poison
another night alone
another day spent waiting
for a hidden axe to fall.
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the panic is useless
stop and look around,
all the shelves are empty
and no one is in charge.
what is life
but the choice
to stand aside
and watch
while the cage is torn apart
and they remove the beating heart.
while they lick their fingertips
until the bones
are all that they have left
to gnaw.
this is life
this is it.
feel the breath of angels as they spit in your mouth
and feel the hand of god as he pushes the air from your lungs.
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Phantom Limb Twitch
03:20
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blood.
at the corners of my mouth
I let it stay, let it run free.
there will be a time to grieve,
and may you find your peace.
no rings exchanged between enemies
but you are bound to me just the same.
and I tear at the seams,
bite hard enough to shatter teeth
while you drill into me
with eyes bright and glistening
and bear down on me
with the weight of memory
until you take everything.
so sharpen your knives
and cut into me.
make your mark and watch it bleed.
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Thinly Veiled
04:40
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a twitch in the jaw
something comes undone,
and the hands letting you go
hope you're never coming back.
they will say it was just bright colors flashing
over the dark insides
of a body full of disease.
[and now the summer swarms
fill the air with droning calls
that lead them all to the rot]
so what came first; the ghost or the grave?
written on your skin,
curses that follow your name.
so what came first; the guilt or the shame?
suffocate yourself and turn your eyes away
without ever looking back.
a twitch in the jaw
something comes undone.
the hands that let you go
hold you by the throat,
drag you back to the light
and up into the day.
leave you bloodless.
leave you hopeless.
in that homesick empty space
where there is nothing
to help you forget the pain.
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Plague Rats
02:10
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Fuck you forever.
fuck you all forever.
I remember
there was a time
that you all were invisible.
just background hum
spilled over shimmers in the air
too weak to exist.
but I can see you now
and now I see you everywhere
as spirits made flesh,
that should have stayed dead.
while you cling to one another
and repeat the words
of a hymn to misinformation
then pass the cup of disease
among all those who keep your faith.
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Throwing Knives
04:54
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I threw a knife into heaven
hoping it would turn the sky blood red
looked up and said
come for me
come for me now
and you never did.
I danced through your storms
I bathed in your tears
until they washed away the thought.
what kind of coward hides
from the rage of a child?
what kind of animal turns on its young?
somewhere inside me I know
there's a piece of you
like a poison thorn
pushing into my heart
to let out your memory
one drop at a time.
somewhere inside me there’s a flaw
born of your failure
I see it in the shape of my scars
in the mirror of my eye
feel it in my teeth
and on my tongue
when i can’t bear to be loved,
but i can't be alone.
in the emptiness of night, for so long
I thought I could hear you whispering -
you will never wake again.
but always when I opened my eyes
you were gone.
like you had never been real
like you had never been at all.
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